I suddenly wake from my dreams to the sounds of my alarm.
All i could think was "this is going to be hell."
I brush my teeth slowly.
I tie my shoes tightly.
I grab i banana very hungry.
I step out into the cold and all my frustrations from the morning seem to disappear.
Now the road and i become one.
I wrap my ipod around my ears and take off through my adventure around portland.
Just me and the road.
I pass the pizza joint and i start thinking about how hungry I am.
my stomach then starts to grawl.
i see the bookstore and start running a little faster because i know i need to get my books and i have been procrastinating all week long.
I just dont want to spend the little money i have on school, who wants to do that?
Nike is on my right and i realize that i want to take my book money and go buy clothes.
maybe i should go buy running clothes since mine have formed many holes? I try to justify every possible reason knowing that shopping is the last thing i should be doing.
What i should/want to be doing is sitting in the hospital with Severin making sure he is OK.
I have not called him in a few days and Im starting to get worried.
he is has been in there for 3 weeks now, lonely, in pain, and probably bored out of his mind.
I miss him terribly, more and more everyday.
The city of portland is just not the same without him and his charm.
Maybe i will go see him this weekend? Bring him flowers like i did the other week and make him smile.
All of a sudden my thoughts and feet stop.
Im back to the beginning.
